Work for financial company in central London. Lots of micromanaging and heavy workload, but it’s ‘low skilled’ work according to labour market (only junior banking operations).
After work, I’m too tired to do anything (other than apply for jobs). Also I can’t really afford to do much on my salary.
BSc degree and 5 years working experience in my industry. My current salary is just 31k (hard to live off in London). That 31k is with two pay rises due to hitting targets - used to be even lower! I’m humble and don’t mind starting at the bottom but the fact it’s low pay and then little to no progression is a bitter pill to swallow. Applied for few internal roles but rejected at final stage despite glowing performance review. No luck externally.
Always have flat shared but hard to find a decent room at an affordable price. Most flats have had mould, and I would share a bathroom in mixed gender shares.
Because of my low salary, I’ve tried to cut costs in virtually all areas of my life.
No beauty treatments, rarely eat out unless special occasion, don’t have a TV, no Netflix or Spotify subscriptions. Lidl and Savers for toiletries. Food budget is very tight too, I have sometimes had to scrimp on meals if have an unexpected payment.
Always lived in ‘unsafe’ areas of London - would pretend to take an Uber then cancel once my friends couldn’t see then walk back at night. Men regularly catcall on streets or shout things from their cars in these parts of London.
Once naively lived with a live in landlord (guy in his 50s) to get cheaper rent (still £750pcm) but then the landlord ended up being a creep who harassed me. I then had to leave early for my own safety but lost my deposit.
Sometimes companies have mistakenly taken a while to refund me something so I’m on edge waiting for the money back.
AIBU to start to resent my employer for paying such a low salary with no progression and bad working conditions? I feel like all the negative experiences in my life seem to stem from the fact I’m on low wage scraping by very stressed then desperate to try risky things just to save money to survive on this wage.
The idea of being able to have a job that pays more than just surviving seems pretty out of reach for someone like me (only had junior roles).
& please don’t tell me to leave London because the only thing that keeps me from giving up on life entirely is the fact I have amazing friends here who I regularly see. They very kindly have treated me to experiences I couldn’t otherwise pay for eg gigs or theatre tickets. I don’t have much time or money to be able to invest in my own future, but I love seeing my friends win.