Sat here doing my daily job search as I do every single day. Wondering why the hell I bother, as in over 12mths I haven't had a single interview, and I must of applied for at least 100 jobs by now, in basically any area of work I think might give me a chance.
Anyhow, just gone through the list of jobs and found a position for a trainee dental nurse at a practice a bus ride away from me.
To see an ad for this is a rare thing, as normally they want experienced people, and usually the positions are at a surgery over the other side of the city.
I have been trying to find a way in to doing dental nursing for a while now, but because of my age, I couldn't do a apprentiship, and any courses I had found, were not offered in my area.
Now, here is the catch, it is a full time position, with a day release training once a week. It is 38.33 hours a week, Mon - Friday.
I so want to do this, but I know that I would feel so so guilty about not being able to do school drop off and pick up, and absolutly gutted to miss their assemblies etc.
But I have to face facts, I am getting no where, applying for jobs with no training or qualifications and I so want a job where I end up getting qualifications under my belt.
I don't want to apply for this and then back out at the last mo, because I have done that too many times before with other things. I cannot fail at something again.
Please someone tell me that my kids would survive, and not hate me for trying to give myself and them a better life eventually.