BReaking down - Help me keep things in perspective

[Nervousbreakdown5]

I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.

My workload has been unmanageable for about a month, and I've been working most evenings.

Unfortunately things are starting to slip. A couple of things have gone awry today - minor and fixable but I am not coping at all.

I am taking them like a personal failure and catastrophising massively. They are not actually directly my mistakes but if I had had time to triple check things like I usually do, they wouldn't have happened. Also they're in my projects so to anyone who doesn't know the details they look like my own mistakes.

I take so much pride in my work, I feel like I may as well quit as I am embarrassed.

Not to mention that fixing things that have slipped over the last few days is all adding to my workload, so more things might start slipping... it's a downward spiral.

I think I need talking down please. How do I remember this is just work in the grand scheme of things and minor mistakes are not the end of the world?

I feel as I might quit sounds like an overreaction or is it all impacting your mental health. Firstly do you have a boss? Why not tell them your workload is causing you to need to do extra hours in order to be manageable? Their reaction will tell.

Why are you working extra evenings. It’s work so do your set hours and communicate if things do slip but without communication your colleagues won’t know. Prioritise the important stuff first and if you are generally in a hard place being open about things should make it easier for you, a good employer doesn’t want hard workers to only feel like they have to quit. The job market isn’t great at the moment and it might seem a relief but you need to rationalise that decision.

Unfortunately this is across the company. There's too much work and not enough people to do it as they keep laying people off.

I am super productive so I'd been OK up to recently, and had always made a point of having good boundaries (no evening or weekend work). But unfortunately right now it's all urgent and all needs doing now (events-based so deadlines aren't flexible)

My manager is equally up to his eyeballs so he's sympathetic but there's no-one to delegate the work too so I havent really mentioned it anymore than in passing. All I can do is try my best.

I kept thinking it was temporary but isn't set to get easier for another month or so.

I am completely at the end of my tether today hence the overreacting and catastrophising I think.