I’m probably going to get a lot of hate for this but I’m desperate and have no one to speak to.
My partner and I are splitting up after 4 terrible years of trying to hold it together for our son. I got pregnant straight after uni and have been a SAHM for the last 4 years (my partner has always earned the money, paid for the house etc, everything is in his name).
Obviously I have no real qualifications or experience to fall back on, I’m not good at anything and have no real passions. Other than my son who has been the centre of my world for the last 4 years. I had a horrible upbringing which made being a loving, present parent the most important thing to me.
I have no idea what I’m going to do. I know the reality for most mums is the exact thing I’m so terrified of, working long hours and never seeing my baby, worrying about covering bills with an entry level salary etc, and I completely acknowledge the privilege of the situation I have been in.
I just feel so naive and stupid for never having a back up plan or anything of my own. I have no idea how I’m going to start over, how I’m going to be apart from my baby, where I can start to look for work, it’s just all getting too much to bare and I don’t know where to begin. I have no one I can speak to as all of my friends are in similar relationships (albeit happy ones). i dont know how it’s got to this.