Preparing replacement for my mat leave

[Crosswind22]

Mainly a rant here but I'm feeling so overwhelmed. My last day is tomorrow before I go on Mat leave and I've just spent the last 2 weeks training my replacement.

Firstly, my leave date was only approved once a replacement was found so I was left wondering until the day my replacement walked in. Thankfully I was prepared with a training schedule and it's been really full on. My line manager done nothing over the two weeks to help and actually gave me new project to work on even after I voiced that I don't have the capacity.

By today, my brain was fried and I was struggling to explain simple things as I'd already explained them. Anyway it turns out my replacement is on considerably more money than me and alot of flexibility was offered. Something I've struggled to get. For example I was granted to work from home in extreme emergencies and had to really fight for it and have only used it once in a year.

Everyone was panicking that I was leaving towards the end that there were certain projects I couldn't finish as if I was the only one who could finish them yet I've struggled to get promoted, been undermined in my position or sneered at if I didn't understand a term and this isn't even half of it. I honestly never had training for my position and was left to figure it out but I wouldn't leave my replacement in that situation so it was all just very intense and confusing because I've realised actually the people who know lots about the business couldn't take over my poisition tomorrow to the extend that I can yet I've been treated like bottom of the barrel my whole 4 years there.

So right now I don't see myself going back but I also feel sad because I was sent off with gifts and lots of well wishes. Like I don't see them as bad people just not really fair employees.

I'll get over it but if anyone can relate or make sense of what I'm trying to say. It's like I've been so looking forward to the start of Mat and not working and now it's here and after those couple of weeks I'm like what the hell was that. I'm replaying the past two weeks, especially towards the end when I was struggling to string a sentence and wondering what they think of me... It's like I'm on a comedown without alcohol or drugs...

Is your temporary replacement male or female?

@ByQuaintAzureWasp female. On paper it seems like she has lots of experience just not in my area...

I can empathize. It's not uncommon for covers to be paid more if they are on short term contracts. And there's always many reasons such as company policy to not pay you more. You don't get promoted because they want you to stay where your are because you are useful in that position. When you realise this it's really demoralising.

I can relate to your post. A lot of things were dumped on me in my last couple of months before leave because they just had to get done while I was there because who else would do them. And yet no appreciation for all the extra time I had to put in to complete it all at a time when I was heavily pregnant and struggling.

It's left me with similar feelings of not want to go back to the job. A job which I really like. But for me I think it's about not wanting to work with this manager again who treated me poorly at a time when she could have chosen to be kind. She chose to be mean.

I mostly ignored the cover, although mine was a different situation. It wasn't my job to train them up, it was my managers. I mostly just answered questions without going out of my way, largely because I didn't have the time with all the extra work that was dumped on me towards the end.

Try to put it behind you and focus on the baby you will meet soon!