I've name changed for this.
I've been at my corporate London job for 10 months. Knew it was 'toxic' (overused word but 100% applicable in this case) from the first day.
Can anyone give me words of advice, I feel really emotional this evening after -yet another- awful day.
Cons of this job:
- Unfriendly work environment. Tiny department in massive company, we sit with finance (we're not finance) and nobody talks to anyone else from other teams. Took me ages to get used to this, I did try to be friendly at first!
About in my second week, I got a post it note on my keyboard when I went for lunch just saying "work friend" and the women (in finance) around me basically giggled and didn't acknowledge me after that.
- 2 hours commute 2 days a week. 3 hours one day per week to different site (all one way)
- constant meetings with different stakeholders where I'm expected to prepare and present but no time to do this due to the back to back meetings and ridiculous workload.
- too much work, not enough people. redundancies when I started, my team went from 5 to 2 and shortly one is leaving. Meaning I have ti cover anything left over, which is an unmanageable amount of admin (my job is not an admin job but they've got rid of our admin staff).
- crap pay. I'm £10k under average for my role but took this (I won't go into it too much but I came off maternity leave and took this job because it sounded like a good opportunity).
- my boss in my 121 today told me that her boss said I'm "very bad" at my job and had said "not nice things" about me to other ppl, including my boss. My boss is an intense micromanager and very manipulative, so don't know if this is true or not, but it's left me in tears as I have given my all these past 10 months, worked so much overtime, done 3 peoples jobs, and to be criticised in this blasé and unhelpful way feels really cruel!
- my boss also pits me and my colleague against each other, very he said, she said.
- no systems or processes, everything is an excel spreadsheet. No autonomy in my role, I can't even send an email without needing to cc in my boss. There's certain people my boss doesn't like and she basically forbids me from
Speaking to them.
- remaining staff have called in sick constantly
- pretty sure I had a panic attack today on a call
Pros are it's a job and it helps pay nursery fees, the corporate company is a really good one to have on my cv.
What to do! Stick it out until 2 years (I wanted to have this company stamped on my cv) or look for something else for sake of sanity. Has anyone else done this?
I really can't see the wood for the trees. Any advice appreciated