Some background, I'm 3 months into my maternity leave with my second child. I've been at my organisation nearly 10 years and managed to do well despite constant restructurings. However, the current restructuring is the worst yet and I seem to have landed in the firing line. I was requested to do a formal end of year review last week over Zoom. They also made me submit my self assessment 2 weeks after I gave birth. I thought I'd had my interim appraisal and handover in July with my interim line manager but found out at the time of the self assessment request it was not acknowledged as such, so not in the system.
The performance review I had last week was awful. I've never had a bad review and it knocked me for six. No issues were raised with my performance the past year. I'm responding with evidence for some of the examples raised in the review in my defence. I know I won't change the rating, but I can provide context on why certain projects stalled etc. and this can at least be saved in the system. Overall, this has really impacted my mental health and I'm now struggling to enjoy my time with my baby. I'm so worried about the future, work, my ability to do my job there or anywhere. They have not put me on a PIP, but I feel it's coming. I didn't get defensive in the meeting and made clear performance issues hadn't been raised previously with me. Also that I want to do well and would take any assistance offered to get me back on track.
I was also formally diagnosed with ADHD while on leave after 3 years of waiting. I know this has had an impact on my work on occasion, my line manager for the past 2 years was aware but his job was made redundant in April last year.
Work has now requested a maternity check in next week. I've not had one before. I don't know what to expect. Has anyone had one before? How should I prepare for it? I don't want to be blindsided again.