Really torn as to what to do.
Working for a charity since 2020 - was off for a year of mat leave during that time. Since I’ve worked there couple of line managers I’ve had have been quite horrible to me (been told couldn’t believe I was employed by charity without explaining why) that sort of thing.
New line manager before I went on mat leave in 2021 - got on ok but new member of staff started and cut long story short I was used as a scapegoat and new member of staff came in and sun shone out her back side. I was used to the new pracs benefit. During this time I felt really undervalued so applied for another job which I got.
However, since everything has ‘died down’ I don’t think I have it in me to start a new job all over again despite how I feel I’ve been treated. It’s less pay and extra hours. I’m currently part time and have a difficult 3 year old who never sleeps. I’m petrified of taking on the new job in case I fail the probationary period as my 3 year old never goes to sleep until 10.30pm, then wakes numerous times in the night sometimes between 4-6am and then doesn’t wake until 8.30-9am. I often don’t get her to nursery until 10am. Luckily my current job is pretty flexible and ware of my difficulties.
The new job has the only benefit that they would train me up whereas I wouldn’t get this specific training with the charity I am currently with so would add an extra string to my bow. My personal home life is pretty stressful and only have support from my mum. I’m really torn as I’d like a fresh start but at the same time don’t have the mental capacity to start a new job that I might not pass probation due to my child who we suspect may be neurodivergent. Don’t know what I’m asking but just don’t know what to do and need to let new employers know whether intend to take the job or not. Feeling lost with it all.