I appreciate this could be quite an outing post for me but I'm not especially ashamed of it, and I really need some outside perspective.
Long story short I've been in a part time professional career since my son was born. He's 6. I enjoy my job, but I've always struggled with work related stress and the job is harder than ever now. I think I'm ready for something new being honest. I spend most weeks feeling frustrated despite being part time. I have no passion for the job anymore. Moving jobs probably won't solve it because the whole sector is a mess and I've no drive to apply for anywhere else. Problem is, I'm good at it, top of the pay scale, pension and holidays fit well around my child.
The interesting part is that I recently qualified as a pilot (as a hobby), and somewhere deep down I'd love to fly commercially. It would be expensive, time consuming and challenging, and I've had physical and mental health difficulties in the past so I'm not even sure I'd pass the required medical. Part of me thinks I'd be excellent. I'm already a pilot and I managed the training/exams for that (somehow). But also part of me thinks I wouldn't cope with the lifestyle and pressure, and medical issues would potentially get in the way. If I get a medical to find out, it would cost me £1000 which is a big cost just to put my feelers out. It's probably a ridiculous idea in all honesty, especially as I'm a mum. How on earth would I manage a job like that alongside parenting?
The problem is I don't have much passion for anything else. I've toyed with so many other ideas, but none of them really grab me. I've done a bit of freelance work to up my hours but again, I enjoy it but I'm not passionate about it. Flying I'm passionate about. I get very excited at the thought of flying commercially.
I just feel a bit lost and I feel like I have no middle ground at all.
Any advice?