Hi,
I don't know if it is getting older or a crisis of confidence. I have done a sit and see / short job trial type thing as part of a return interview for a job I thought I liked the sound of and now on reflection I think I bonded and got lost in the interviewers personality and grateful maturity, that I hadn't taken on board what the role looked like.
I'm currently in a job that was a 1 years fixed term contract that I've been in a while that got extended until end of 2025 because I'm a bum in a seat. It's work from home a good deal which I know I'm lucky for but I'd started to feel isolated but equally I know I couldn't cope or afford to be full-time in the employers place of work either (distance) so I feel really stuck and stupid.
I've been badly trying to escape my temporary ongoing call centre job in going for other interviews but in the trial for the new job which pays slightly less and is maternity leave cover so more risk I know (another short-term job which could end up in extension if the lady doesn't come back) I couldn't see the wood for the trees and just couldn't see myself doing data entry and having no real contact with customers. I'm also concerned to be in a team with two other colleagues who came from being apprentices themselves which I really do admire but they are much younger than myself and it started screaming out at me, would I fit in.
I feel I may be best to turn the role down if offered, wondering if anyone else has had to do the same. I feel so silly I mean I even had a maths and English test after the first interview which gave me half an hour in the office even before the trial and should have picked up why no phones were ringing. So badly wanted to joke leave me here when they took me on the building tour and we passed customer services.