What do I do? I have asked my manager for approval to sit a professional exam early next year. This was ignored until I asked again when he asked if he could call me when I was on annual leave. I had just had some bad news about a family member so told him that it wasn't a good time and that I was hoping for approval so that I could use some of my time off to revise.
He phoned me and said that it would be better if I did it later next year and I needed to do an attachment in a different department and if it went well there then he would back me.
I've already done an attachment there and feel like he has changed very suddenly in his attitude towards me, becoming more negative.
I voiced how difficult this was and he said that we'd speak when I got back to work and that there were no problems.
I am aghast. The department pushes for us to do this qualification. The manager has changed so much towards me and I don't see a good reason for this. I don't trust him and am worried that I have done something wrong which I am totally unaware of or that he has a vendetta against me. I am raging and paranoid and am wasting all my time off worrying about my professional reputation and being denied a chance for development.
What the Hell do I do now?
I have requested a meeting with a colleague to accompany me to protect myself, but my self-esteem is in tatters and I am dreading going back next week and keeping it together.
I feel like this is it now and the rot has set in. I have given so much to this job and it is obviously not enough.