Work depression - anyone relate?

[Honeysucklelane]

I am really down, angry or crying at my desk the majority of the time when I’m at work. It’s got to the point where I feel like I need antidepressants - but on my days off I’m fine. I had a really lovely, happy week off over half term,

I WFH, only do 24hrs, I have a lovely home office, the pay is better than equivalent roles I can find, but yet I’m so unhappy. I can’t deal with the bombardment of emails and teams messages coming at me, I hate sitting through dull online meetings. The organisation lacks proper staffing structure and any proper management. The context of what I do is incredibly dull and the systems are poorly set up.

If I try to articulate these feelings to family I get told there are lots of worse jobs and people working far harder for far less money in much worse environments. I should be grateful I’ve even got a job.

I know all of this, but I cannot help how I feel. Every work day I give myself a huge kick up the arse and vow to be positive, but within a couple of hours I’m shouting at the screen or crying in frustration.

Change job. You're not stuck. Keep looking g for a new job until you find one that you're less stressed in.

I left one job as it was absolutely horrible. My new job is much less stress.

Yes I have. Been banging my head against that brick wall and going around in circles over it since April. I don’t know if it’s a cost thing, lack of understanding about what we need, or management just aren’t proactive. I can’t action these things myself, all I can do is sound like an increasingly fed up stuck record when I get asked to do something and I have to say our current system won’t let me do that. 🙈

I am trying, had two interviews this week, and applied for two more jobs. Trouble is, I’m so miserable in this job I’m just panic applying for anything remotely suitable, which isn’t a great approach. I don’t want to end up somewhere else I don’t like.

I feel the same. Life is great apart from the time I'm at work. Realistically I'm paid well and don't have to work that hard and can WFH most of the time which gives me a great flexibility. But I have a micromanaging boss and feel so unmotivated. I keep trying to tell myself I have it good but I still feel so depressed in my working hours, which actually means I am less efficient and productive, but nobody really notices. There's no point leaving as I can't get a job with this level of flexibility and this high salary. But I am counting the days till retirement and I'm not that close.

Yep, know the feeling, stuck record and all that

I’m depressed, peed off or tearful during work hours. I don’t want to take antidepressants as I had them previously for an awful work situation. I vowed I would never medicate again to cope with work. No one notices my lack of productivity, there’s not much to do, I’ve asked for more work several times but no one passes anything on. They don’t notice as I’m getting the stuff done I’m meant to do. Sounds like the dream to lots of people, but it’s demoralising and isolating for me.

A senior colleague needs to do a simple task to move things forward and despite lengthy meetings, written instructions, video instructions, video calls and more written instructions it still hasn’t been done. They’re the only person that can do it as they have the access. We all WFH and live miles apart, otherwise I’d go and personally do it with them. I’ve never come up against such sheer incompetence and it infuriates me that I’m paid less than anyone else and I’ve had to bear all the stress of trying to get it done.