I’m very upset about a number of issues at work
I work in a difficult (the most difficult) part of the workplace and two other staff members (we work in education and I’m in the area where there is physical challenging behaviour) won’t get involved and the boss gives a of of leniency to them.
as my work is tougher and I’m putting myself ‘out there’ and exposed - every flaw is visable and I feel criticised.
for example the other day he said the work I set was too easy to the assistants. My role is to provide sensory and movement breaks but then he comments ‘there’s no learning going on ‘
The other staff in the department keep low and don’t get involved. I don’t feel part of the team. One senior manger is particularly nice to me and the boss himself has verbalised I have a hard work ethic but then I head from the assistants he says something else. Also I got quiet emotional one day and told him I don’t feel supported and he has finally out supports in after two months of a nightmare.
however I feel my relationship has broken down with him. Even at my interview (I had to re interview) I was taken twenty mins late as my department lead messed about and wanted tea and I was left in a corridor. I told him I felt I was treated quite poorly. Also she is a user and dumps stuff on me.
I want to try and stay and build up relationships but I think it’s gone too far. Boss knows I have looked elsewhere for work as it’s all getting too much but I have now told him I will fully commit. I was committed for 20 plus years in my last job and I’m only mid 40s