I work for a lovely, small business. There's only a handful of us here but the future of the company is very unstable. Basically they are looking to close the business within the next 12 months (max). It's been a long time coming and definitely not a surprise. I was holding out to see it through to the end (was promised a very generous redundancy) but a few month ago, DH found out that his job was also in trouble.
We have a mortgage and a child and I'm the sort of person that needs stability (or at least some stability) so the thought of us both being out of work at the same time was terrifying.
I managed to find a job which I have accepted. It's more money, closer to home and better hours than my current job. On paper, it's ideal. I'm absolutely gutted though.
I don't want to leave my current job. I don't want to start this new job. I have all the usual pre-new-job fears, but I do have an overwhelming feeling that I don't want to leave. I've been happy in this role for years, I'm comfortable, I'm settled and I'm happy.
Logically I know that this job will end, probably in the next 12 months but could very easily be sooner. It was getting to the point where each week I was expecting to be given notice and I was a bit of a wreck about it.
I stumbled on this new job completely out of no where and have no idea how I've managed to land it. Everyone else is so happy for me. Even my current bosses are saying it's the right move and a brilliant opportunity.
I've burst into tears a few times about this and I'm feeling incredibly insecure and honestly, dread.
I know I need to be rational but I can't move past this feeling that it's all wrong. Does anyone have any advice on how to sort my head out?
Just to add. I do have anxiety which I take medication for, I'm tempted to ask for a higher dose while I try and overcome this.