I'm unsure what to do about this. We have a regular team meeting which is held face to face in London. I'm on a contract rather than employed but my role is unique and considered integral to the team. I've been in role for three years, and I pre-date my line manager. My counterparts in other teams across the country (we have regional offices and a national team overseeing) are also included in team meetings and this is the model in the organisation, which is not for profit. We usually get an agenda in advance and it's also attached to the calendar invitation.
Two days before our last team meeting I received an email from a member of the SLT telling me the team meeting has been downgraded from a day to a half day, focussing solely on an upcoming event and that I was not needed to attend. This event is annual and last year I was fully involved in organising it and was a speaker. This year I haven't been included regularly but have attended some meetings about it as one of the areas it looks at is my unique specialist area and my input was needed.
I was surprised but obviously didn't attend. The impression given was that it was a last meeting to finalise minor details. There was no agenda on email or the calendar.
Then after the meeting on our team WhatsApp a more senior member of the SLT posted what a great meeting it had been and about having had rich discussions on all the topics.
I was confused and posted that if there was anything for me to action/follow up then to let me know and I was told notes would follow.
The notes arrived and there was a full agenda looking at some really important topics which I would reasonably expect them to need my input on. With that agenda it's not acceptable within our organisation for them to have excluded my role. There would be an expectation from our national team that I would be in those discussions.
I had not been sent an agenda and there is not one attached to the calendar invitation.
I messaged a colleague who is also a friend (as in we go out together out of work, discuss our personal lives etc) just asking if she had been sent an agenda and if it had included those items as I wanted to check if I'd missed something. I thought it was possible the topics had come up organically and were then discussed, but that it hasn't been planned.
She replied in a really odd way, saying she didn't want to reply on her personal mobile and would pick it up at work next week but that she had received the agenda a few days before ie at the same time I was uninvited, but couldn't remember what was on it. This is very unlike her, she's very organised and remembers everything. I think she didn't want to tell me so I backed off and wished her a good weekend.
There's background that I've been experiencing verbal bullying from my line manager for months now and was signed off sick with stress earlier year due to this.
I don't know how best to handle this with SLT. I'm obviously not going to ask my friend any more, I can see she feels awkward and I suspect she knows something she can't tell me. And ultimately she will prioritise her job over me of course.
Do I email my line manager? Or do I just note this down as another example of bullying and continue to plan my exit?
We do have HR but they are not helpful with contractors (or anything to be honest!) and we don't have a culture of involving HR in things.
I have a meeting with my manager booked soon anyway, as part of our regular meetings schedule, so I could bring it up then, or not.
I am planning to leave anyway, and I have posted about my issues in this role before under other names (I'm trying to stay anonymous).