I work for a tiny charity. Our MD has gone on a sabbatical so a few of us have taken on portions of the workload as it wasn't really enough time to hire someone/train them up etc. I offered to take on payroll/HR and have somehow ended up with all the general finance stuff. We didn't discuss this during the handover meetings (where we spoke about how to do the payroll) but is now in the general handover notes and videos.
I suck at finance.
I get completely overwhelmed and into a panic which then means I end up making further mistakes because I'm in a tizz about it. Currently trying to follow the 'step by step' instructions and it feels like every other step is missing or incomplete. Like there's a bit about how to do something for one part of the business at the end of each month, but then doesn't explicitly say that that then needs repeating for each individual part...but that would be logical no?! Not sure. Manager is absolutely uncontactable. I feel like I'm going to hand this back in 6 months and everything is going to be an absolute mess because I was incompetent. Have genuinely noone to ask either, mentioned it to a few colleagues and got an 'oh that sounds tough, glad that wasn't left with me!!'
Trying to tell myself this is just the first month and it'll get easier with practice but surely if I do it incorrectly the first time that's only going to compound the issue for the future months as I repeat the errors!!
Not sure of the point of the post, just feeling very overwhelmed, lost and like I'm making a mess of something genuinely important.