Am I too soft

[BreadnButterx]

26F. Young professional. Working in a hospital. Only working there for less than 1 year.

I find that people can be snappy and it’s awkward to work with some people. I feel like people, including higher ups, sometimes be hard to read and hard to gage.

I often get upset and self doubt and have imposter syndrome. Lately more so. Ugh I feel like I’m doing a terrible job but at the same time I’m doing so much to help the team. I’m always friendly and offer a helping hand but when things goes wrong, some groups point the finger to me…

what can I do to improve this mindset? I’m honestly so sad this will be working life until 50.

I find that people can be snappy and it’s awkward to work with some people

Do you work in a stressful or high pressured environment? You're going to meet snappy and difficult people throughout your working life and unless it's bullying, it's for you to find strategies to deal with it. Try not to take it personally and just be professional and polite.

I feel like people, including higher ups, sometimes be hard to read and hard to gage.

If you're confused then ask for clarification.

I often get upset and self doubt and have imposter syndrome.

Perhaps counselling would help you work through that

Lately more so. Ugh I feel like I’m doing a terrible job but at the same time I’m doing so much to help the team.

Ask for feedback on your work from your line manager and take on board the feedback if you feel it's fair. Don't take on more than your fair share although it's nice to help out now and again.

I’m always friendly and offer a helping hand but when things goes wrong, some groups point the finger to me…

Yep, people often aren't very mature and will single out someone to blame. Get some books on assertiveness or take a course. Don't take the blame for things you didn't do.