It's coming up to almost 12 months after returning to work from Maternity leave and I'm still an absolute mess, cannot seem to get on top of things.
I'm missing deadlines, making mistakes, and totally winging it most days. I can't think of a single thing I'm on top of. I have this constant brain fog, if I were to describe what it's like in my head it's like constant white noise. I can't concentrate, easily distracted and can't seem to stick to any plans I make to try and tackle the load.
My job is managing lots of different projects, each with different stakeholders, responsibilitys, timelines etc. I find it absolutely exhausting and struggle to switch between the different headspaces needed.
The thing I've also realised is that I don't think I've EVER been good at my job. But before having a kid I just put the extra hours in. I worked evenings, weekends, I've even booked AL and secretly worked as somehow people not knowing I'm working helped me focus. I do not have that time to spare now and it is very clear that I am not functioning without it.
Has anyone else experienced this? Any tips that worked for you? To help get myself back on track.