Mental health crashes before work

[Homedesign123]

I work 3 days a week in a supermarket, I don't do a lot of hours I know this, I'm also my daughters carer shes 4 and has quite severe autism, I've been at this job for 8 years but I'm at the point now where I don't think I can fo another day. My mental health, anxiety and depression is at an all time high, last week I was shouted at by a big Scottish guy and threatened for apparently staring at him, which I really wasn't, accused of being racist for not getting a guy a carrier bag instantly while I was already doing something else, given a blanket file note (warning) with everyone on the department for something I don't even do (wandering off without telling anyone) and shouted at for asking a lady if she'd scanned her cheese.

I really don't want to go back, there's no other suitable part time jobs going in my area at the moment so leaving isn't really an option but my chest is so tight from the minute I walk in to minute I leave. It probably sounds silly I know but the feelings are so real.

well, look for another job then.

On the days I have work, I work evenings I just feel so down all day, I cry on my way there. I'm 30 years old and I know this sounds so pathetic, if this was someone else's thread I'd think god what a saddo, suck it up it's 3 days a week, I know this and I know I'm ridiculous but I don't know what to do to stop feeling this way

Are you getting help from your GP for the anxiety and depression? Make sure you are.

And it must be tough having a young DD with autism. Do you get out often and meet other families? People with children with additional needs can often become isolated.

Do you need the money? If not, then perhaps you could take a break from work and concentrate on getting your DD prepared for school (presuming she starts in Sept?).

If you need the money, then you need to somehow build your resilience. Get other team mates on board to chat in the staff room about the shoppers' behaviours. Mentally cross off the hours until the end of your shift. When someone shouts at you for a ridiculous reason, feel pity for them. Remind yourself that a few years ago, your role was considered 'key'. Feel proud of yourself when you know you are giving good customer service.

It doesn't sound the sort of environment where staff feel valued, so you need to somehow value yourself.

I sympathise hugely. No one should feel this low at the thought of work.