I realise now that I have been sick since the end of 2022 - it's only now that I've formally been diagnosed with Long Covid which is essentially CFS/ME.
I am learning how to pace and I have good days and bad days but I can now only manage 1 or maybe 2 days in the office per week and no more.
Unfortunately before I was diagnosed I had applied for a new job (better pay, bigger company, brilliant job for my CV) and accepted it. It was literally the day after I signed the new offer that I was diagnosed luckily before I had handed my resignation in.
I told new job I had a sudden diagnosis of a chronic illness and had to withdraw - I didn't tell them what it was as our industry is small and I didn't want it spread around (I hadn't accepted it at this point as I had thought, till now, that I would recover from whatever it was). They decided that whatever it was, I would find a treatment and come back to them in a few months time.
Those months have gone past and I just got a call from them today. The problem is that my current job is still very tough, very long hours and lower pay than I should have BUT they are totally fine with me working from home as much as I need. They know I have long covid and are being as accommodating as they can be.
New job is more money but I can't tell what the working conditions will be like. I want to go back and say I just can't do it but my partner and my friends think I am mad to turn down an opportunity like this.
Problem with long covid/me/CFS is that every day is a battle and every day is a struggle and I just feel that something new is another struggle I don't need but I do also recognise that current job is a struggle in itself.
Any wise counsel? I think it's hard for people who know me as they are thinking of the person I used to be (who would jump at this opportunity) rather than where I find myself now.