Hey MN,
Long story short, I recently left a company I worked for 10 years, starting at an entry level position to working my way up to senior management. Although I was sad to leave, I felt that there was no further progression for me and my salary was way under than what I should have been paid at the level I was.
I have been in my new role for around 6 weeks and I'm struggling with adapting. Although there is loads more progression and much higher pay, admittedly , I am finding it challenging going from a management role to a non senior position and being the 'newbie'. I'm so used to being the go to person and the one who has all the knowledge and answers to literally not knowing a thing. I'm also used to being the decision maker to now being the one having to ask permission or guidance on everything.
I feel stupid and having to ask multiple questions a day to understand what to do as the role is different than where I've came from, although using a lot of my transferable skills. I hate not knowing the answers and being unsure what to do.
I'm having imposter syndrome and I feel completely useless because I don't have the knowledge to be able to just do and action. I am a perfectionist and this is also impacting me as I want to do a good job and prove myself but the lack of experience at this point is really bugging me.
I've had a couple of reviews and the new place say they are impressed and happy with me. I've had no negative comments and the odd mistake is part of the learning curve as I'm essentially learning on the job.
That being said, I can't help but feel rubbish.
My old employer said I can walk back into my job at any time, which I don't really want to do because I do like my new place but at least I'd feel better in myself again as I'd know what I'm doing!
Does it get better?!
Xo