Name changed for this. My role has changed recently and a lot more work dropped on me. Work I am not familiar with and given the amount of stuff I already deal with, I'm not really coping. I've gone from feeling like a reasonable and capable employee to now just being emotionally unstable. It's affecting me at home, I've had a poor weekend feeling paralysed by anxiety/depression/panic/not sure what for the majority of the weekend. It's been building for months.
Work know about the stress the extra load is causing, there have been discussions and the attitude is oh well, nothing we can do about it, you just have to get on. Oh and throw in a little bit of emotional blackmail for good measure....I know you're busy but can you do this extra work as well as another dept is struggling. They either don't care or don't have any power to change the situation. Its public sector.
I feel like a failure. Its all being piled on and I feel as though I should just be able to buck up and get on with it, im being pathetic, but it's all too much. If things don't get done because there isnt enough time, I'll be asked why. If something isn't right because I've lost the ability to concentrate, I'll be asked to explain.
I don't know what to do to make it better. It's affecting me at home, I'm dreaming about work and having random attacks of anxiety where I just shut down. I've a doctors appt lined up but what do I say? My job is giving me another role on top of my already full one and I can't cope? The doc can't make it any better at work. Im already taking ads and have started counselling through work. I don't know what to do. (Ha! Work counselling...we won't resolve the problem, we'll send you to a therapist to make you cope with it.)
My role is specialised so not easy to walk straight into something else. Plus, I shouldn't have to leave!
I'm not sure what I'm asking, I need some advice. I feel like I'm going to do or say something I'll regret.