I've been at my company several years, though in a juniorish position. It's known for lack of progression and you can usually only get any substancial pay increase if someone leaves.
I've had the same manager for the majority of the time I've been there, and we've mostly got on well. I did have some pretty severe mental health issues over a year ago that resulted in me having some time off work. I've been back totally fine for the last 10 months since this happened.
But then I got a new manager in Feb and things have been on a downhill trajectory since then. She's nice I would say but definitely from a more corporate background. She expects things done instantly and treats everything like its an emergency. She sends lots of emails looks quite a lot of catch-ups and seems quite critical (though is niceish about her criticisms). But I notice that she seems to have her own vision for everything and wants to review everything. My previous manager would only review quite high-levels things and it was usually a comment along the lines of 'made a few suggestions, otherwise all good.' I made something recently and there was a comment on every slide, some of them I could understand, others so trivial that they seemed to be a matter of taste such as preferring to use a different image, thinking a font should be bigger even when it' s perfectly readable.
Now to caveat I do ADHD and dyspraxia, I do understand some of this probably is me. I've always had to proof-read things multiple times, listen to things outloud to stop mistakes. I am really creative and good at big picture thinking, but sometimes do struggle with details. I try and put in measures to improve this, but the reality is I probably am going to be a bit slower than your average person, though my hyperfocus sometimes serves me very well.
I've got back to a point where I'm working way more than my hours, for a salary that's a bit below average. I often log on and I'm the only one one on at 7/8/9pm. I've been told off for being online at 7 or whatever by seniors before, but I feel like I don't have much choice.
A lot of the job I'm doing now is slightly different to what I was doing before, so I feel like I'm on a learning curve, but I've also been given other stuff to do in addition to the new responsibilities. She tells me to block my diary with every working second of the day, but the issue with this is things always come up/you can't always accurately guess how long everything will take. I feel like I'm actually trying harder than ever, but under this new manager it seems like she's never going to be that impressed.
My previous manager was quite the opposite generally and I had quite a lot of freedom to make my own choices and have control over my workload, though I sometimes didn't get too much guidance.
My main worry is that while my MH is generally way better, I'm starting to have panic attacks and feel sick during work. I've stopped cooking healthy food and living on energy drinks and readymade sandwiches, as there doesn't even seem to be time to make a quick healthy lunch. I worry everyday I'm going to get put on a PIP because I don't live up to her standards. She's an interim covering someome else's role, so I don't know if she has this power or not.
So I suppose the questions I'd ask area a) how do I aporoach this - I've already aporoached the heightened workload with her and it was kind of just put back on me and b) if you happen to have a neurodivergent condition, are there any other considerations I could ask for that could help with the above? I currently have some equipment but that's it.
Feeling really low and worried ðŸ˜