I've been looking for work on and off pretty much since the end of lock down, enjoying looking after DD which I never did when she was first born.
I've enjoyed looking after her but now she is at school, I've got to get back to work because I simply can't take being at home anymore.
I wanted to use the opportunity to try something new but I'm having very little luck finding anything that fits even remotely around school hours - most actually mean I'd see almost nothing of DD and still be left doing nothing during school hours.
I've been in contact to employers in my old field but they can only offer full time and long full time at that. This would be as well as a 2 hour commute each day.
Child care is doable but certainly not ideal. DH wage would still be the main one by a very long way.
I feels so god damn useless at the moment and unhappy that I don't know if I should take it but it would mean being away from dd for a lot of the time.