I applied for a job really to 'test the water '. It's been a dream of mine for decades to move from where I am and start a new life somewhere else. I don't have any support in this city I had my mind on, but I thought 'Oh well, see what happens'. Anyway, I got an interview, but turned it down as I had to keep a hospital appointment I was given the same day and I told them this. I then applied for the same job about 6 months after, as they readvertised it, but this time they didn't short list me and they had a train strike too on that very day, so I wouldn't have been able to attend anyway. It was like everything was against me.
Now my mum tells me how stupid of me to apply for a job so far away when I don't even live there, let alone having no intention of going for the interview and now she said they've black-listed me, but I couldn't go initially anyway because of my hospital appointment. Why do I keep messing up? Am I wrong to apply or is my mum right, that yes I am stupid? 😥. I only wanted to 'test the water' there. This was 4 years ago and would still love to live and work there.