Hi MN
I posted before under a different name last year, I'm in a management role, managing a team of 5, working for a national charity.
I was promoted around 15 months ago, after helping to set up a new project, was meant to be a short-term change, then became permanent. I do not enjoy being a manager.
I work in a high pressure environment with limited resources.
3 of the 5 in the team are very capable, hardworking & easy to manage, two are not. They are both older than me, seen as ‘hard work’ by the rest of the organisation. Have worked there for over 5 years - way before I started. One is particularly difficult to manage -poor communication skills, often late/missed meetings, chaotic, I often need to delegate the work she doesn't do or I just do it myself.
I've started to become more boundaried with her & have approached her about the things that aren't being actioned, spoken to her about why they aren't being done/have become more boundaried only to find out she's complained she's being 'micro-managed'
She always has an excuse, & nothing is ever her fault. The other person I mentioned is just not very good at the job, meaning that other team members are frustrated as they're doing most of the work. These two people will never change, they make me feel incompetent & miserable. They sometimes make me feel angry & I'm not an angry person.
The stress that's related to the role is now starting to massively impact my life outside of work, the support from my manager isn't great. I can't see that anything's going to change & I'm desperate to leave.
I have a small amount of savings & have started to apply for other jobs, but genuinely don't think I can hold on.
Has anyone else on here ever taken the risk of just leaving, and glad they took that leap of faith? Would appreciate your thoughts/experiences as I'm literally starting to dread going to work.