Sudden panic before I leave my job

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I'm having a sudden panic over whether I should have left. I woke up feeling awful today
I've been there 5 years and this week is my last. I have a long break planned now.
I felt so undervalued by my line manager. She never comes in so my job includes doing parts of hers she would do on site. I haven't had a pay rise apart from the annual one and I'm the lowest paid in the office but the most revenue is under me. I'm having to work evenings and weekends in order to have savings even though my job is hugely profitable and low hassle for management as they never have to get involved
I get the feeling Ive missed out on internal promotions because my line manager is hard to work with and I just put up with her
I guess the problem is money and management which are the most important factors. It didn't help that the lady I manage for my line manager is paid the same even though she's literally data entry and been there a year. She's planning to retire within 6 months

I hope I'm making the right decision...

I think it's normal to have a bit of a last minute flap/panic about most big decisions. Maybe write down the reasons you're leaving (like you've done here) and keep it in your pocket or on your phone. Take it out and look at it every time you feel the need to.

I am in feeling the same. Leaving my job in 3 weeks as currently working my notice. It's so scary but I am trying to be brave 🤞

I feel the same! I am also signed off sick for my notice period so I won’t see my team which makes me feel awful but, it is the right thing to do for my sanity!!!! I worked for the NHS for 13yrs and I will just disappear with no big send off, I have struggled with this for the last month but it is what it is. I’m moving on to better things and not looking back.

what helped me was what a lady above has advised, writing down in your journal (I assume everyone has a journal these days!!) “ I hated these things about my job”: I reeled off 12 just off the top of my head and I could easily add to that list. Just looking at it and reflecting over the last few days reminded me WHY I wanted to leave.

your line manager retiring in six months is just a carrot dangling…. What if she decides not to retire? Six months is a very long time to work in a job where you are stressed out daily. Honestly it is not worth your health! And it will end up impacting medically on your health unless something changes.

i think you are making the right decision.

see what else is out there!!!!

I think I will really miss the people and how spoilt I was. I was even given two advent calendars by my manager this christmas but the pay was terrible. I got away with a lot including coming in late once when my line manager was wfh and even the new people covered for me. It made me feel really loved

There seems to be a terrible panic suddenly that no one was ever taught the job and I developed all the processes myself ...it makes me feel good but a bit funny irritated that I wasn't ever given a pay rise or seriously invited to discuss it when I raised it after 4 years.

I had awful anxiety about leaving a job I’d been at for over ten years and was happy, but bored, in. I think you have more compelling reasons for a change than I did so keep them in mind when you feel doubt!

Starting the new job was even worse than making the decision and then actually leaving, which were hard enough. So be prepared to experience regret/shock/sadness when you start too.

But just over three months in and I’m happy I made the move. Also, I know I can do it again if I stop enjoying this one or a good opportunity comes up.

Best of luck. I hope you feel that wave of relief when you wake up next week and don't have to go in, don't have to deal with your line manager again.