I really need to be financially independent from my husband.
I have a ba hons degree in illustration and for the last 9 years have been running a business (etsy shop) around being the primary care giver to our three children. Youngest 1 (cant afford nursery) middle had asd so school is difficult no wraparound childcare either so I definitely need to remain flexible.
I make below minimum in my business now with the living cost crisis people just aren't buying art prints/wall stickers.
I enjoy running a business but it isn't reliable for income. In the 11 years I've facilitated my husbands career so he has a much higher earning potential whilst I'm stuck at minimum wage with all the childcare responsibilities/barriers. He has over the years worked rolling shifts/on call so its been very difficult to even see how I could work unless it's wfh and flexible. Typically I know most people work full time and transition into wfh roles/flexible roles once they have proven themselves. My husbands current job sometimes want him to be on call/work weekends/go back of an evening.
I can't drive no money to learn. Without a job obviously I can't save.
I am currently doing a free counselling course which is very interesting but I couldn't afford the fees to train and learn to be a counsellor(flexible job wfh) I don't qualify for any funding either.
If I was to pursue a career in illustration/graphic design I would have to potentially volunteer first or do another course as my degree is no doubt outdated by now. I still have the same issues of no money for this or childcare. It won't be until September my youngest hopefully will get some funded nursery.
I have applied for local minimum wage jobs just to see if I would get anything but my c.v is very empty looking so I can't even get interviews for part time or weekend work. Starring a career feels very difficult.
I just want to be on a path working towards something so If my marriage does end I can feed and house my children. I don't want to be stuck in minimum wage forever I have always wanted a career. When I met my dh we agreed he would be the sahd and I would work full time. As I got pregnant on the pill during the last year of university as he was already working and earning but couldn't afford nursery it made sense to start my own business. He always promised we would swap and he would support my career and earning potential. But 11 years later I can clearly see I can't rely on his support in this way.
Do I just get any job and save up?if so what kind of jobs are do able in my situation.
I feel incredibly foolish,vulnerable and I have no confidence. I am finding the constant job hunting and rejection very hard going. Everywhere wants minimum 2 years experience.
Please help.