Hated all the small talk. I don’t see the point to talk for nothing. I am a socialable and outgoing person. I work in typical office 9-5 job. But for some reason everytime in company social event, I can’t engage conversation with any colleague for two more questions or so. The conversation just die. My office was 95% parents. Now I am 6-months pregnant and it’s my first one. Since then I felt I am being more ‘included’ as in preg always becomes a topic and some colleagues just soooo enthusiastically talking about their child, show me photos..touch my belly (which I don’t like it).
I came across very friendly but in those gathering I just don’t shine and feel uncomfortable. I cannot really know why other than maybe there is nth in common with them.
Especially after yesterday the Xmas do, I just feel almost awful. I did not gain anything from the Xmas do other than wasted my time. And seeing all my colleagues getting drunk and lousy. The feeling was so strong that I am considering don’t go to these gathering ever again. Like maybe just show up for like the pre-event drinks and not committed to the full outing.
it’s also particularly strange that I did work in other non-office jobs before. And I had always been very happy and got along with others. Had a good laugh always. It’s only office job environment. I feel everything so wrong. Forced fun. Suck up to the CEO, whatever he said is funny. I felt like I couldn’t stand it.
the only upside about office job is financial security. Period.
i wonder if it’s just me ? Or it’s pretty common ? Or it’s becoz I preg ?! Or do anyone has similar feeling ?? Would be great to hear others’ story.
thank you!!