Wanting to be back at work

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Hi

I took redundancy while on maternity leave; lots of jobs were made redundant, so nothing untoward but naively I didn’t realise how hard it would be to get a new job.

I had two interviews after not seeing many jobs I could apply for and one seemed to go okay with a decent salary and okay hours. I didn’t get either job and feel gutted about it.

The feedback from the two different employers said I did well at interview; the job I wanted took ages to make a decision (found out today) and was told it was really close. I didn’t think either interview went brilliantly.

I’m close to desperate to go back to work. I just feel like I’m not capable anymore but honestly feeling shitter being at home full time with my nearly 14 month old. I just feel like I struggle spending everyday doing the same things, and trying to fill the time, which now feels indefinite. I enjoy my time with DD and I do go to playgroups and meet others but I’m frustrated and really want to be in work.

I can’t take on freelance work as it wouldn’t work for childcare so just wondering if anyone had any advice? I feel really stuck.

Thanks

What industry do you work in? I got made redundant on maternity leave too, so I know how it feels. This time I lucked out with finding something quite quickly, but in the past it's taken me a few months. It's such a numbers game, you just have to keep applying for anything that looks like it might be suitable. The fact you're getting interviews is such a good sign.

@pumpkinfarm Thank you I know you’re right intellectually. I work in TV.

It already been a few months since redundancy but only started looking in the
last couple of months and these have been the only two suitable jobs I’ve seen.

I’m low in confidence, and don’t think I did well in the interview as my head is all over the place…didn’t feel prepared enough.

Did you feel confident when job hunting? How are you handling juggling being back at work and baby?

Thanks