My chequered career has not been succesful

[malificent7]

Started off as an English teacher. Gave it uo as I was shit and got bullied and failed to get a contract.
Now got into healthcare and whilst I do love some of it, the pay is shit ( bottom of band 5) and the shifts are killing me.
Tbh I think I was a fool going into public services.
I guess the civil service sounds good but I only just retrained( spent most placements being bullied etc and that has knocked my confidence.

What sounds good about the "civil service"? Which is a puiblic service, you know!

Bullying happens everywhere - there are no guarantees that you won't like any particular role or career, nor that there will be no bullying anywhere.

If you got bullied both do you know why?

You seem to get bullied a lot. Have you thought about counselling and learning how to stand up for yourself.
Is it bullying or are people being impatient with you because you are not grasping something or think that being allocated work in a brusque way is bullying.
How do you think you were bullied? These jobs are fast paced environments where jobs have to be done yesterday and people aren't always going to be nice and smiley.

From memory your current line manager is supportive and encouraging your development? The only problem is your impatience and negative self-talk.

If you always pack everything in at the first bump in the road and without giving yourself time to progress, then you are the only person responsible for your lack of career "success".

You need to stick with things beyond basic training to make a success of them and progress upwards. Nobody starts out in a senior role.

Some of it was definitely bullying. I do enjoy the fast pace though.

I stuck at teaching for at least 10 years but it just wasn't me.

A touch of victim blaming here

I would second what a PP said and consider some form of counselling. You seem to have low self esteem which appears to be manifesting in your work. You really will feel the difference in yourself 💓