I am used to working in huge companies and being ‘just a number’. We relocated to a new country last year for my partners work and I found myself a job in a tiny company. I was the first hire.
At first I really liked it but as more and more people have been hired, the roles and responsibilities are getting confusing. I don’t know what I’m meant to be managing and what I’m not. I have someone who is (in appropriately) stepping on my toes and poking herself into my work. This could also be because the lines are blurred but I think she’s just making it worse.
Every suggestion I make is wrong. Every idea I have is bad. I’ve now stopped talking in meetings.
my last review was great and I haven’t had any bad feedback. I’m just really struggling with the set up. I’m losing my confidence (not that I had a lot anyway) and thinking and worrying about work all the time.
How do I make this stop? I need to try and tough this out for a year at least and maybe go back to a larger company as that seems to suit me a little better.
I am extremely depressed. I haven’t yet had a chance to talk to my manager as he hasn’t been here for a while. Maybe once I get to do that it’ll get better. Everything is just so chaotic and I never thought a job was capable of messing with my mental health so much!