I'm in a rut of hating my job. I really want to find something that suits me and I enjoy, it really affects me spending my time doing something that I don't enjoy and I struggle to not worry about it.
I am 1 year back from my second maternity leave and won't be having another so I think the long road ahead of work has really sunk in.
I'm middle management NHS, no specific qualifications or specialism (degree educated but not related) and I've sort of ended up in a niche policy area but not anything particularly sought after or that I have a passion for.
I really don't enjoy it. It's pressured and stressful but boring and unfulfilling at the same time.
I think I just need to get on with it for now and not worry too much as I have no idea what I want to do or would enjoy.
I just constantly think life's too short to be sat behind a screen all day bored to death but also very stressed and unappreciated.
I previously ran a craft shop side hustle pre kids but it fizzled when I had kids and is now all boxed up. I'd love to restart it but I can't find the time or gusto and I'm barely keeping afloat anyway mentally and physically with 2 little ones and a full time job. I can't drop pay so would have to build up to it being massive before I could move to it which is unrealistic.
I would love to retrain in something but I tend to get an interest and obsess then lose focus (strongly suspect I am ASD as I have a tendency for this). I have always been building up to a maternity leave or knowing I will be for the last 6 years so I think the reality of the long working stretch ahead is kicking in and I'm not happy doing what I'm doing.
I feel like I need some inspiration.
If you made a career change after kids and love your job what is it?