I have never been off on long term sick. I've always been quite resilient but recently I've started to feel like I can't cope. I've never felt this way before.
I got a promotion and was meant to stay on the same team but due to admin errors I was moved to a role that I am not suited to. I'm awful at it. It's lost of ministerial work and lots of urgent things coming in.
It's so, so busy and so difficult and I'm really not getting the hang of it. I have been in the role for a year now so have started to apply for jobs.
It has got to the point where I haven't been taking lunch breaks because i'm too busy. I've been considering logging on on my day off or the weekend to try and catch up on work. I am only paid around 22k as I'm part time, so it's not like I'm a high grade who needs to be logging on out of hours.
I feel like I've got all that pressure, then I come home and my house is disgusting because I don't have time to keep on top of it. I feel like I can't keep up with the washing, tidying, putting clothes away, making sure we have food in the house, taking the kids to their activities, making sure their uniforms are ready. I just feel like I'm at breaking point. I have absolutely never felt like this before. I just can't cope.
I am employed by civil service so could easily get a couple of weeks off with stress, but I would also feel so guilty. They can see I'm not the type to do this normally but I just don't know if I can do it to them. What are people's thoughts?