Just sitting here on this Friday night wondering what to do with my life! I took 4 years out of work having children which I know I was fortunate to be able to do. Went back to work a year ago and just cannot cope. Took a much lower paid job than I left on, initially just to step back into the work force part time, also needed something that fitted around school pickups etc.
I just feel stuck now. I had to go full time as they would only do part time for a fixed period. So I'm working full time for low pay. I am happy enough in the job. The people are lovely. It isn't particularly stressful but it is busy and physically tiring. But I'm shattered from the driving, the pickups, my children, everything. I have no time to get anything done, the house is a tip and I spent all weekend recovering from the week.
The obvious answer is I look for something better paid and part time. But I just feel crippled with anxiety. Like I'm a totally different person to the one I was pre children. I feel like if I can't cope now, how will I cope with a higher level job. What if I take it on then let everyone down.
Has anyone else felt like this after some time out of work? What helped? I seem to fit between wanting to challenge myself and earn more money and just quit it all and just be a mum! I just feel so shattered from trying to do everything.