Context: I retrained as an allied health professional 3 years ago. Spent some time in a hospital working as a team, 8.30-4.30 liked the job but full time, put a flexible working request in which they fully dallied around with for months. I was desperate to drop hours and felt like was on a continuous hamster wheel otherwise loved the job and the team and seemed to be getting on well. Anyway I’m my desperation for p/t I applied for a hybrid role which was offered to me p/t.
Ive been there a year and a bit. The place can only be described as strange. No formal in boarding . Little support but they have some idea that there’s plenty and don’t seem to understand why me or others ask seemingly silly questions (everywhere else I’ve worked hasn’t minded questions as long as you don’t keep asking the same thing). Team leader seems to do very little other than dish out work. We are completely left to our own devices if we want to be. I’ve really struggled to learn it and my confidence is low, I feel really isolated ( I could for days with no phone call/ physical contact with anyone) and on my wfh days I feel really lethargic . I feel pretty boring too- so when husband and kids tell me about what they’ve done in the day I hoenslty can’t think of much to say about my working days. We do 1 team day in the office and when I’m there it’s really tricky to get much done but the team seem to get along even thoigh the job is very individualistic. I really miss going to a place and doing a thing and leaving it there. However i know that I won’t get the flexibility anywhere else (allowed to move days/ hours aroun, all A/L agreed etc which was not the case at hospital job).
Ive come to the conclusion that wfh is not my thing (I am able to go into office but will most likely be there on my own too so may as well stay home). Has anyone had the same and made the move back to in person working etc? Have they enjoyed it or struggled to adjust? I honestly worry that I’ve lost all people skills and umph and not sure I’m capable of getting it back!