Long story short, I was asked to apply for a role that would have been a promotion within the area I work in and there were many nudge nudge wink winks on the run up to the interviews so I thought I stood a good chance. The recruiting manager advertised the role as full time and when I spoke to him he asked me to go away and speak to my husband about him changing his working pattern so I could do the role over 4 days. This did cause a personal conflict for me as it would have meant less time with my very young children but I decided it was worth it. This was all before interview day.
So now we've had the interviews and they went with a 'more experienced candidate' who can also conveniently work full time hours. When I got the call yesterday I was initially angry at how I've been led down the garden path so to speak as this role has been on the cards for a long time with my name associated.
Now I'm sat here thinking maybe it was a blessing in disguise as I don't need to change my working pattern or lose time with my children, current pay is very good but I don't really love the role. I saw it as a stepping stone but now this higher level role has been filled, there isn't anything else to apply for. Do I even want to, should I just stay where I am and be happy that I've got a decent deal here even if it's not the perfect role for me. I have a long working life left as I'm not even 40 so plenty of time to change roles and working patterns when my kids are bigger? Help me make sense of my thoughts! X