I’ll try and be concise. I’m very stressed from current job and off sick. I’m also juggling personal things. I’m so desperate to get out I’m applying for anything I have experience in. Only trouble is, I don’t want to keep doing similar to the job I’ve been doing. The nature of it means stress. My ideal is civil service but they are notoriously slow. So I’m scared my sick leave will run out before I get in there (pretty confident will get in eventually, and I am willing to take a pay cut).
This means I’ve been applying for similar to current role but elsewhere. Some are temporary and that in itself is causing me stress - I won’t have a job after. Higher pay though.
I am not sure which way to turn. Should I accept I need to work through my stress first and pause the job hunting and focus on me first? Should I only go for permanent positions to not add a different sort of stress?
Part of me thinks I should go for a job that will be easier for me to do, so I can rebalance and find my equilibrium again, and then decide whether I want to aim higher. But I’ve always been told that I’m smart and working below my capabilities so I should aim higher (which means higher salary) even though I’m not ambitious in this area (work. I have passions I am ambitious about). It causes a lot of internal conflict.
I’m aware this sounds all over the place. I’m just struggling a lot right now.