Not sure why I’m posting other than I am in a very dark place with this all at the moment. I’ve been trying to get a promotion to G6 for the past 18 months and after a year of applications and interviews I can’t take any more. I mostly apply for G7 stuff now but can’t even get that. Some of them are even roles I’ve done previously.
I have ten years experience in complex G7 roles and I’ve always great feedback everywhere I work. but I simply cannot get another job. It’s not even that the interviews are bad they are just mediocre. I’m on a lot of reserve lists. I’ve no idea what magic worlds I’m supposed to say.
Now every rejection devastates me. I literally spend 3 days in tears after each rejection and I feel like hurting myself. I no longer have anyone I can talk to about it in real life after the fifth or six crappy interview they all lost interest. If someone told me they’d give me a job in exchange for my right arm I’d think that a fair exchange at this point.
I’ve wrapped up so much of my self worth with being good at what I do. Now I thinking I need counselling or something. Or a job. Any bloody job.
I know it’s hard out there but is it really that hard that moment?