I've just turned 38 and me and my partner have been trying for our first baby (currently on cycle 6) and haven't had any luck so far. I had the opportunity at work to apply to study for a qualification that is funded by the apprenticeship levy and I have been accepted. The course would probably take around 2-3 years in total. Now I could have waited and applied in a future year but at this moment in time I have no idea if I can even get pregnant and I didn't want to waste the next two years thinking I should have just gone for it if I don't get pregnant. It will be a really good qualification that would help me to earn more money and progress my career.
I'm really panicking now because I feel like if I were to fall pregnant my employer would be very disappointed and would question why I embarked on this when I was planning a pregnancy. Obviously the major factor here is my age, I have a very limited time to try and get pregnant now, being in my late thirties and so waiting until I've finished the qualification isn't an option.
Should I back out of doing the qualification? I have already established by querying with the study organisation that if I were to get pregnant that a 'break in learning' would be granted and I could then pick up where I left off when I came back off maternity leave (which I would intend to do). I don't want to discuss with my employer as I feel its a very personal issue. Do I just start the apprenticeship and deal with it if it happens?
Its keeping me awake at night worrying about it, what do I do? 🙃