Hi all,
LONG POST ALERT!
I work for a small private family run business - I am the only ‘outsider’ in the office.
I have been working there full time for the last 2 years and I am frequently left alone to run things 2/3 days per week.
Recently, I have been making more mistakes. I am not afraid to admit when I am wrong or have made a mistake. And I’m only human.
However, the company uses basic tools such as folders, Microsoft package and a very basic email system for their operations. Things often get missed, and it is hard to see progress with tasks, or conversations with clients, because there is not really any efficient way to see progress or history and communication is not great.
I have brought this up in meetings but they are reluctant to purchase a CRM package which would make life so much easier.
My boss is absent a lot of the time sunning it up at his holiday home, and then comes back and micromanages me to death until I feel like I can’t cope. (However he doesn’t do this direct, he does this through my only colleague, who by the way is ‘not superior to me in any way’, and she keeps tabs on me every hour, recording my actions and any mistake or errors I may make)
They do not know that I know this, and there has been no formal communication with me about my performance, how I am feeling, or what steps could be taken to solve the issue.
I helped achieve 15% company growth last year, however I feel like I am failing at my job because I can’t seem to do anything right. Sometimes I feel I’m making more mistakes because of the pressure of being watched.
I like the job, and I get the benefit of working from home a few days a week. And it’s flexible with DD.
However, I know my only colleague does not like me and thinks I’m stupid (we don’t have conversations outside of things regarding work, if we do it’s forced), she often makes snide remarks and thinks I don’t notice, and the stress is bringing me to tears at least once per week over the last few months.
Also my basic salary is minimum wage and I build it up with commission and also receive a share of profits (although not garaunteed!).
I have been offered another job, which is more than my current basic salary, but no commission, I will get a bonus if I am lucky!. So I am looking at a 5k pay cut per year (based on last years earnings, I may make less in current job this year!)
New job is also full time but no work from home so I would spend more on childcare.
i guess I’m posting this to vent, but also to receive reactions about this situation and whether you would take a pay cut etc?
I am seriously doubting my ability and think if I take this new job I’m going to be crap at it, because this is how current employers are making me feel. I also haven’t written a resignation letter before so any tips there would be great!
thanks for reading