I have severe OCD and anxiety. Have tried every medication the GP can prescribe and have gone through NHS funded intense CBT. I am now having private therapy and awaiting an assessment with an NHS psychiatrist.
I work for a large organisation, started just under 2 years ago. From the beginning, they have known about my two conditions (which i consider a disability, if that makes a difference). I have only ever had about a week off for being unwell with covid.
I have managed to do my job well since starting, but over the past month, due to stress/pressure at work and in my home life, my symptoms of OCD (which then trigger my anxiety) have worsened and I am in a state of not being able to do my job completely - I struggle with my hours as I am up early hours of the morning as a result of my disabilities and then have a very physically demanding job to do, as well as be responsible for checking everything is in order and locking up at the end of the day. Everyone else in my place of work, and of the same level as me, have an earlier ‘shift’ pattern (its not a shift, they are fixed hours in the day) - i started on this shift pattern too, but as per my contract I was moved to this later shift pattern. Everyone else has an old contract which doesn’t include the later hours. Everyone else was offered my job, but everyone declined it. So I know nobody wants to do what I do.
I spoke to my GP who suggested taking time off work. I explained I would prefer to work, but that I would benefit from a change to the working pattern/duties, as these exacerbated my symptoms. She understood and offered me a fit note with these suggestions. Has also offered to sign me off, if this fit note falls on deaf ears.
I know my employer doesn’t have to meet these suggestions. I have been told by my employer to pull mself together, and another manager (same level) has said they would try to help but that he can’t be seen as disadvantaging other employees (as the responsibilities would be given to them) just to accommodate me. Fair enough.
But by not helping me to figure out a solution, leaving me as I am, is that not discriminatory against my disabilities? Is it not considered a reasonable adjustment?
I am willing to work, but cannot work at full capacity without causing extreme emotional and physical symptoms. I would hope that this isn’t a long term thing, and things will hopefully improve.
My suggestions have been: start earlier (as I am often awake 6-7 hours before my current shift starts). This doesn’t affect anyone else’s work or business demand.
Share / give the end of day locking up responsibilities to other employees. The problem with this, someone would need to stay later to do this (everyone else leaves hours earlier as they are on an earlier shift). OCD rituals, especially with things like ‘double checking’ can be so exhausting when I am solely responsible for it.
I’m being told by other colleagues that ‘everyone has anxiety’ ‘i have anxiety and i’m fine’, and making me feel like i’m crazy and being dramatic. I wish others understood how OCD actually affects people - its not as simple as people are lead to believe.
I feel so deflated and unwell from it but I simply can’t afford to not work.
Is there any leg to stand on? I worry about being dismissed as i’ve read that being employed less than 2 years offers little protection.
Thanks for reading