Hi
I'd be really grateful for some advice. I think this is going to be quite long.
I've been managing anxiety for most of my adult life (didn't always know that's what it was).
I take beta blockers which really help me with the physical symptoms but never taken any other meds. I've had a lot of therapy which has really helped and then just managed it myself in different ways.
I've only once been signed off work by a GP for anxiety related reasons. That was years ago and not in the place I'm working now.
I've been quite open at work about having anxiety. My job is working with people who have a physical or mental health problem so my colleagues (should) understand what's going on, but I only bring it up when it's an issue.
At the moment I'm having a really bad time with it. I think it's work related. We are under a huge amount of pressure, not enough resources + a manager who doesn't really understand what a management position means. I feel very unsupported, left to deal with difficult situations on my own and generally unhappy.
I've got an appointment with a MH practitioner tomorrow and I suspect they will suggest some time off.
I have kept my manager informed about this and am still doing my job.
This morning she has asked me to attend (remotely) a meeting at 9am - she asked me at 8.50 - because she would usually attend but was still 'on her way in'. I'm
WFH.
The meeting is about vulnerable and at risk clients. I don't think I'm in the right frame of mind to be attending that meeting this week and said that I was sorry I could not attend.
Was I being unreasonable? Had I been the manager (and I have years of management experience) I would not have asked me to attend. Particularly with 10 minutes notice.
I'm finding it difficult to think clearly at the moment.
The other issue is that I have an interview for a job next week.
I don't know what to do about it. I want to go as I need a new job!
But can I go if I am off sick?
Thanks.