Left job of 30 years & feel anxious

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So I worked in same place my whole life, but this was bought over. I stayed 18 months but just couldn't work for the new company. I was lucky to find a new job straight away training to become a pharmacy dispenser so after a weeks break I started. Or the end of the week I was mentally drained, hardly eating & shattered(catch22). I was grasping the job but I felt i would never remember where all the meds went,(when I asked 1 of the dispensers how long b4 i remember she said i was grasping it but could take up to a year). When i woke up the next Monday I felt feeling physically sick. I still went in but or the end of the day decided I couldn't go back. Now I'm stressing thinking about new jobs & whether I can do any of them. I don't know if cause I've only ever had 1 job I'm not coping with this change or if it's cause I didn't succeed in the 1st job I've tried. I've been looking @ jobs in retail as this was my 1st job but when I've gone into a shop shopping I talk myself out of applying online.🤦‍♀️
I need to work financially but feel really lost as to what I should do next, if there's something I should be doing for my mental health to help me adjust.

Sorry to hear you are struggling OP. To reassure you, I feel like that with every job change and it takes a good year to feel really comfortable in a new job I find. It will be harder for you after being with one place so long but you will find something you feel ok with.

I changed jobs after 15 year and I found it a challenge to pick everything up, had a few panics inside BUT kept telling myself this is normal.

change for everyone is hard, even when it is positive change.

there are so many jobs about though, so jyst apply, don’t think about it to much and certainly don’t over think it.

if you don’t like the job leave, but give it a few week first - maybe 3/4 weeks

my mate is 59 and has had 5 jobs in the last 2 years after 25 years in the same job. If she doesn’t like it she moves on

It's a shame you quit the first job so soon. The way you felt is completely normal for most people when they change jobs. It can take a few weeks/months then suddenly things just "click".

I changed jobs after being at my previous employer for 20+ year. The first three months you will feel like a deer in headlights but everyone knew this and just helped me along. After 6 months it became much easier (and I eventually remembered everyone's name in my team) and now totally settled in. But this process takes months, rather than days or weeks.

Change your mindset - you can do this job but you have a steep learning curve. Once you have mastered the basics the rest should come along quickly enough. Its like learning a language or sport, you need to train your mind to the new normal.

I wondered if Id dived in too quickly, I just thought I need a job this would be good I'll give it a try. I know I'm my own worst enemy but it's hard not to overthink. If i had been doing the job & felt ok I would have stayed but my problem is when I feel like this I stop eating & after a week of hardly eating I could see where things were going. Now I'm stuck in this place where I feel incompetent 🤦‍♀️

Do some courses (try FutureLearn or OU for online ones), get upskilled in something (anything) and prove to yourself you can still learn new things. Once you start to learn again (which is essentially what you are doing in a new job) that soft skill comes a lot easier.