Dreading work since going back after maternity

[Strugglingatworkmum]

I'm a first time mum to my 1 year old. I got back to work since he was 8 months old, working from home. It's a demanding city job, but husband has been able to take parental leave for another 6 months, so I realise I'm very fortunate.
I wasn't passionate about what I do before but I enjoyed it most of the time and certainly didn't find it intolerable.
It now feels intolerable and anxiety inducing. I constantly have brain fog. I'm not sleep deprived either as DS now sleeps through the night. Feeling unbelievably inadequate and insecure.
Can anyone relate? I really don't understand what is going on and it's hard, I'm considering resigning but don't know what else to do either. Sitting here in bed in tears fearing tomorrow.

Sorry you're feeling like this.
Do you think you could have post natal depression? I know someone who developed it when her baby was 9 or 10 months old just as she went back to work. She had to go off sick for a few weeks but was successfully treated and returned to work.
I would speak to your your HV or GP and ask them to screen for it.

Do you think it's maybe time for a change of job?

When I went back I had the usual didn't want to leave my baby etc but work started becoming 'my break'
It did take awhile for me to get back into it to be honest.

Now that you mentioned it...i had pnd immediately after birth, got resolved 6 months postpartum with support. I'm wondering if it can come back at later stage like this...

Could be as I have been questioning what I do a lot. Afraid of making a big change with this state of mind though