A bit of background info…
I used to work as PA/HR Manager full time in a vibrant office.
Had my first child several years ago now and there was no way I could return to my role, it was very long hours and so my boss and I decided that I would work part time from home fully flexible managing his large personal property portfolio. Back then this was the perfect solution as it allowed me to be available for my kid (now kids) at any time and I could make my work work around them.
Roll onto now, I now have 2 kids and still do the flexible role, BUT…I absolutely hate the job!
I literally love the flexibility and I see so many parents struggling to manage school runs/nursery runs, attending school plays etc so for that side of my job, I literally am so lucky and I have to keep telling myself that I wouldn’t find the flexibility anywhere else. But as much as I know this, I still can’t actually bare the job itself to the point where I’m losing sleep overnight trying to come up with a solution.
No solutions found though except to just tell myself to shut up and get on with it because I can’t get that flexibility anywhere else. I feel totally trapped for this reason though.
The fully flexible job has cons too because everyone thinks it’s acceptable to message you at all sorts of times and where it’s a reactive job, I can never just switch off from my job. I’m always having to react and so I find it so draining.
I have absolutely no support with my kids during the week. My husband works full time and really long hours, so effectively during the week it’s like being a single parent in terms of managing the kids’ day. I would love nothing more to leave my job and get another job somewhere else but I can only work between 9.30am and 2.15pm before having to do nursery run and school run. Nursery is a pre school term time only setting so similar hours to school and have no aftercare option. My child loves going there.
And then even if I was to get another job somewhere else, how would I manage all the school holidays? At the moment, I work around the kids and tend to catch up with my work evenings/weekends.
I just wondered if anyone else was in this position or has been in a similar position and if doing anything differently helped. Or if anyone has any advice. I know I’m sounding like I have the dream job in terms of flexibility and I should just stop moaning, but I honestly hate the role. It’s eating away at me but how can I leave it and manage life???
I have a very supportive husband, but when I mention how I feel about my job, he just says I can’t really do anything about it as I need the flexibility and I won’t get that anywhere else.
Thanks for anyone who has taken the time to read this.