Hi everyone,
Just after a little bit of advice, I’ve worked in my team within the NHS for around 18 months and in December I was interviewed for and offered a managers job in the same team.
Just before Christmas we had a death in the family and I ended up getting upset at work when I heard and was crying. I got sent home (it was a Friday) and returned to work the following week as normal and nothing has been mentioned since.
Yesterday was my first day in my new role and I was immediately called to a meeting by my new line manager where she asked me if I was sure I wanted this job as she was aware of my “mental health struggles” and that I was a sent home from work in December. She said that managers “need to be strong” and “cope with difficult situations” and she isn’t sure this is best fit for me if I can’t even cope mentally with my old role. I confirmed that I did want this role and was sure I could meet the requirements of the post but she ended the meeting by saying I should “think carefully about my decision” and she would catch up with me next week when when she is back from leave.
The meeting has thrown me and has made me feel like she doesn’t want me in the position. I’m obviously keen to do a good job but this line of questioning has knocked my confidence completely. This is my first management role so I’m not sure if this is an appropriate meeting to have which has came from a place of genuine concern and I’m just being over sensitive? I’ve had good references and no previous performance problems. Admittedly I do suffer from anxiety and depression but I’m on medication for this and it has not impacted my performance at work.
Any advice for moving forward would be great