My head says that I want to leave my current job but there's a lot that I'd miss about it. It's a difficult decision that I've struggled with for years.
In October, I was offered a job that I was sure I wasn't going to get. Caught off guard, I completely panicked at the prospect of a huge change, losing the good bits of my current role, and having to learn a totally new role in a totally different industry. I told them that I'd realised it wasn't for me and I wouldn't be any good at it. Of course, I regret it.
There are a lot of people in the role across a few different departments and they're still advertising. I keep swinging between calling them and being honest, waiting a while longer (how long?) and putting in an application for a different department to the one that interviewed me before without saying anything about my previous interview, and thinking that I've blown it for good. Is there any way back from basically saying 'you shouldn't hire me' when offered a job?