I work in a child based career after having a while out of the job, but I am currently on sick leave due to having a mental breakdown and I know I’m not going to feel better any time soon, even though I’ve had some people tell me I’ll be back to normal in a couple of days and that my mental health is basically just a phase!
I’m severely struggling with juggling being a mum to a child with on going behavioural issues and other underlying health issues and working in the childcare field. I’m not concentrating properly at work and am severely behind on all types of paper work because I’m so exhausted and tired. My mental health is putting a huge strain on this and for the safety of the children I think that I should resign.
BUT, I’m terrified to resign, especially whilst on sick leave as I know I couldn’t work my notice as I’m just not well enough!
I have already heard a couple colleagues slag me off in the past about my performance (yes it’s not been great, but it’s not been by choice, I’ve just genuinely been battling a lot!). My manager always compares his issues with mine and he never acknowledges when I’ve said that I’m struggling. Instead just telling me to “think positive” 🙄 if only it was that easy! He’s quite pushy and I just worry if I hand my notice in he’s going to try and talk me out of it or get annoyed and cross.
I am just terrified to hand it in, but mentally I’m in no fit way to be working with children and really my health and children come before anything else.