I’m a nurse in ED
I do 99% nights for childcare reason .
I have no family here . My partner’s mum lives over 2 hours away and she is still in works anyway .
my child is 3 and goes to nursery , however , like every child she dies occasionally get sick . And I do 12 hours shifts anyway so nursery just won’t cover the hours .
doing nights means I can be sure to not miss work ( been told off to take time off for childcare ) and she has always either me or her dad with her .
the issue is I’m seriously not coping anymore .
I just don’t sleep . I get a few hours here and there but there is no pattern at all. Sometimes I end up being up 40 hours straight ..then only slept 4-5 ..then up again . I just survive ..but I’m exhausted at home and at work . Feel like I have dementia. I’m in my 30s
i was looking up jobs , not nursing because I’m sort of done with it tbh , but I cant even imagine having to study . Don’t have the brain for it at all. And then I worry that with a day job they’ll sack me if I have to take time for childcare ..
I feel complete trapped in a lifestyle which is harming everything,my body, mind , family .
how do I get out if it ? Anybody been in a similar situation?